I had so much support and praise and ended up doing nothing with it all. I'm an idiot, a loser with a glimmer of passion left. I had a sponsorship offer from Tom if I ended up finishing a game I was working on, but never even finished it. Hell, I even got awarded a free tablet to improve my skills, yet I feel as if I have wasted all of my 9 nine lives to make a name for myself. I've lost front page posting abilities, so now even more people no longer remember who and what I achieved at Newgrounds, even if I hardly achieved anything spectacular, it was still a big stepping stone in my life.

As my flash career spiralled down I started making pathetic music about how my mundane life was so miserable and thought people would actually give a shit. Al though I learnt quite a bit about music production, none of it has really taken me anywhere.

Now I feel like I've started so many dreams that I've lost track of which one I actually want to take and it depresses me because I want to do all of them.

I don't even know why I am posting this, it seems I have a habit of coming back to things that affected my life some how. I really don't know what else to say or do. I can only say thanks to whoever once believed in me. I tend to take a lot of subtle things for granted.